Done deal.

Emo rant coming up.

I'm going to write all the stuff down here cause I tend to be more expressive through my blog. Well, these past days, past weeks of see-sawing back and forth finally came to an end. Finally fell of the see-saw. Can't say I'm surprised. I sort of already sensed it from you and was hoping to make the choice much much later compared to now.

How this reminds me of the scene two years ago, it's freaky. Then I made the decision to follow my heart. Now I listen to reason.

There's no way it would have worked out. It's just to messy for both of us. Mainly you though. I'm just angry and mad this hasn't happened a year ago. Bad timing huh? Truth is, you wouldn't be happy with me anyway. I'm too protective, too obsessive and think too much. I mean I could even get angry at the thought that the sony guy asked you out really spoke to me. I'm definitely not ready to be in a relationship.

Well they say you can't lose what you never had. I didn't place any bets, take any risks so I shouldn't feel the pain right? Hope thats true.