Manhattans

So I saw you again today. Was considering whether should I meet you today but I'm glad I did. Cause it made me realise what I should have realised long ago. You've changed, you've moved on. And I did too. After today, I did not feel the usual feelings of emoness I would get everytime I see you, but I felt happy that you are so happy.

And you tell me to find someone to be part of my life again. But what happened between us was so naturally, too naturally. I don't know how anymore. But yea, right now I'm neutral. Living one day by one day, slowly.

You know you'll always be in my heart. I'll always love you. But not in a same way that I once was. I've grown stronger and learnt from my mistakes. The past won't happen again.

So I dreamt

A dream is a wish your heart makes.

Yea. I'm wishing but will it come through. A bitter-sweet dream of you. uh yeah.

Sometimes I'm trying to hard. Sometimes I'm neutral.

Stoning

Things are on auto pilot for me right now. Living a day a a time, without any plans whatsoever.

Time check 4:15am. Goodnight world.

90%

Hello world.

My holidays are pretty much empty! Stupid GAP haven't called us, probably didn't get the job, damn. Now I will stone at home for the holidays. Bored!

Relieved that you're back and safe. I'm totally convinced that I'm 90% over you. Stay safe babe.

Time check 5:15am. I should really be sleeping. Body clock screwed. J again?

Your call

I was born to tell you I love, and I am torn to do what I have to.

Summary of the day in a words. Bbq, cab, trolley play, hot chicks, numbers, msn, 2nd hand smoke, smses, fun.

Waiting for your call. Nights.

Alone doesn't means lonely

Sometimes I feel like I don't have a partner
Sometimes I feel like my only friend

Cant speak now. No more voice! Thanks to 4 days work and clubbing yesterday. Some troubles bothering me now. Same old shit over again.

Feelings of loneliness is nagging at me. Every where I look, everyone has someone that care for them and they can show care to. Everyone has someone except for me.

Goodnight world.

4 more days - Mahjong

March 11th. 22 months since we met through mahjong. Played mahjong today too.

Four more days. Relationship problems and memories

5 more days - Romcoms

Every romantic comedy I've watched tends to follow a certain story line. There's the meeting, the happy times, the complication, the sad part (which is normally a montage of how are they handling the break up) and the talk. The talk is the most important point. That's where the feelings come pouring out. For my movie, we haven't had the talk yet. Right now, I'm still stuck in a montage of sad songs. But you're too busy.

Five more days. Maybe I watch too much television. Damn worried.

6 more days - Rollercoasters

Roller coasters. Same ride again? Hate it when people just stop replying messages suddenly.
Six more days. Still worried for you.

Counting down - 7 days.

Somehow I find myself thinking of you again. You're like an addiction to me. Obviously I'm not a big deal to you anymore, but you're still a huge part of my life. Things I said you might have forgotten, but things you said I'll always remember.

One more week. I'm worried

Digital Asia!

Woo peoples! I got a job at Digital Asia for the IT show. The pay scheme is so much better compared to Triple A la. Hopefully this time I can earn more!

Genting was fun to a large extent. Certain times, certain feelings came back to haunt me again. And no, it's not my strawberry shortcake. Here I thought I had forgotten.

I'm walking in the rain, braving the storm and reminiscing about the past. Sub me out and replace me please.