Hello people.
Just got back from the dentist. My teeth is damn screwed. And so is my pocket. 150 for fillings for two of my teeth. Ouch. Now considering whether should I do braces. It's damn expensive and that's what stopping me. Shall save money from now on.
I want to play soccer again. And I shall organize another outing. This time round need to find lots of people.
***footnote***
Memories of you came.
***Song of the week***
This week song is Deep and meaningless by Rooster. I was introduced to this song by my weird friend. And I like it alot. Here's the lyrics.
I, I don't know why I miss you so much
Yeah I, I don't know why I still feel your touch
You, you left me feeling high and dry
With nothing, nothing but the question why
Yeah you, I guess you had another direction
And leaving me with nothing but a dead connection
Chorus:
If you call me today
I'll say that I'm fine
But I bet you can tell by the tone of my voice
It's just a lie
You knew what you had
You still walked away leaving me in this mess
My love for you is deep and meaningless
You, you knew what you were doing to me
And I, I guess I was too blind to see
Well you hit where it hurt and you fooled me so bad
But I'd do it again to relive what we had
(Damn that's sad)
There are many things left to remind me
Of a love that I just can't leave behind me
Chorus (Repeat)
Monday, September 29, 2008
fairytales
Do you believe in fairytales?
Do you believe in happily ever after?
Do you believe I still miss you?
***footnote***
Our past doesn't allow me to forget about you.
Do you believe in happily ever after?
Do you believe I still miss you?
***footnote***
Our past doesn't allow me to forget about you.
Sunday, September 28, 2008
Crush
Hello people.
Just watched the F1 race. Congrats to Alonso for winning. It was an exciting race with lots of crashes and events. Pity to Ferrari though. Both drivers didn't get to score points. Now they losing to Mercedes by one point.
That's the highlight of my day today. My days are wasted away without an aim. Still have the nagging headache and the blister on my feet is killing me. I can't walk properly and have to resign to wobbling. There's also my tooth that's irritating me. Going to see a dentist tomorrow, hopefully will end this problem once and for all.
***footnote***
It's all just a crush. I'll get over it.
***Sunday Joke***
Once again, we are at the end of the week. Anyone having Monday blues already?
Coming into the bar and ordering a double, the man leaned over
and confided to the bartender, "I'm so pissed off !"
"Oh yeah? What happened?" asked the bartender politely.
"See, I met this beautiful woman who invited me back to her
home. We stripped off our clothes and jumped into bed and we
were just about to make love when her god damned husband came in
the front door. So I had to jump out of the bedroom window and
hang from the ledge by my fingernails!"
"Gee, that's tough!" commiserated the bartender.
"Right, but that's not what really got me aggravated," the
customer went on.
"When her husband came into the room he said 'Hey great! You're
naked already! Let me just take a leak.' And damned if the lazy
son of a bitch didn't piss out the window right onto my head?"
"Yeech!" the bartender shook his head. "No wonder you're in a
lousy mood."
"Yeah, but I haven't told you what really, really got to me.
Next, I had to listen to them grunting and groaning and when
they finished, the husband tossed his condom out of the window.
And where does it land? My damned forehead!"
"Damn, that really is a drag!" says the bartender.
"Oh, I'm not finished. See what really pissed me off was when
the husband had to take a dump. It turns out that their toilet
is broken, so he stuck his ass out of the window and let loose
right on my head !"
The bartender paled. "That would sure mess up my day."
"Yeah, yeah, yeah," the fellow rattled on, "but do you know what
REALLY, REALLY, REALLY pissed me off? When I looked down and saw
that my feet were only SIX inches off the ground!!"
Just watched the F1 race. Congrats to Alonso for winning. It was an exciting race with lots of crashes and events. Pity to Ferrari though. Both drivers didn't get to score points. Now they losing to Mercedes by one point.
That's the highlight of my day today. My days are wasted away without an aim. Still have the nagging headache and the blister on my feet is killing me. I can't walk properly and have to resign to wobbling. There's also my tooth that's irritating me. Going to see a dentist tomorrow, hopefully will end this problem once and for all.
***footnote***
It's all just a crush. I'll get over it.
***Sunday Joke***
Once again, we are at the end of the week. Anyone having Monday blues already?
Coming into the bar and ordering a double, the man leaned over
and confided to the bartender, "I'm so pissed off !"
"Oh yeah? What happened?" asked the bartender politely.
"See, I met this beautiful woman who invited me back to her
home. We stripped off our clothes and jumped into bed and we
were just about to make love when her god damned husband came in
the front door. So I had to jump out of the bedroom window and
hang from the ledge by my fingernails!"
"Gee, that's tough!" commiserated the bartender.
"Right, but that's not what really got me aggravated," the
customer went on.
"When her husband came into the room he said 'Hey great! You're
naked already! Let me just take a leak.' And damned if the lazy
son of a bitch didn't piss out the window right onto my head?"
"Yeech!" the bartender shook his head. "No wonder you're in a
lousy mood."
"Yeah, but I haven't told you what really, really got to me.
Next, I had to listen to them grunting and groaning and when
they finished, the husband tossed his condom out of the window.
And where does it land? My damned forehead!"
"Damn, that really is a drag!" says the bartender.
"Oh, I'm not finished. See what really pissed me off was when
the husband had to take a dump. It turns out that their toilet
is broken, so he stuck his ass out of the window and let loose
right on my head !"
The bartender paled. "That would sure mess up my day."
"Yeah, yeah, yeah," the fellow rattled on, "but do you know what
REALLY, REALLY, REALLY pissed me off? When I looked down and saw
that my feet were only SIX inches off the ground!!"
Saturday, September 27, 2008
headache
Argh.
Having a effing headache right now. So I shall keep this post short. Blah blah blah blah yada yada yada.
That's all.
***footnote***
Who?
Having a effing headache right now. So I shall keep this post short. Blah blah blah blah yada yada yada.
That's all.
***footnote***
Who?
Friday, September 26, 2008
Shh.
Evening people.
Just got back from another day out at Malaysia. Really like to shop there. Things are just so cheap. I bought a t-shirt, a present for my student as children day is come and running shoes. I want to start jogging. Need to get back into shape.
Woke up quite early to head down so I'm quite tired right now. Tomorrow still have to wake early for soccer. Damn, I need coffee.
Packed my cupboard just now. Still have the gift you brought back from Japan for me.
***footnote***
I need the silence to sort out my head.
***Today in history***
Just got back from another day out at Malaysia. Really like to shop there. Things are just so cheap. I bought a t-shirt, a present for my student as children day is come and running shoes. I want to start jogging. Need to get back into shape.
Woke up quite early to head down so I'm quite tired right now. Tomorrow still have to wake early for soccer. Damn, I need coffee.
Packed my cupboard just now. Still have the gift you brought back from Japan for me.
***footnote***
I need the silence to sort out my head.
***Today in history***
2002 - The overcrowded Senegalese ferry MV Joola capsizes off the coast of
Thursday, September 25, 2008
Hopelessness
Hello people.
It's 1150pm now. So i have only 9 minutes to post this to reach my quota of one post a day. Today went past quite fast. Maybe it's because I found something to fill my time with.
I have quite a few absurd ambitions. I want to be a writer and a director. Ever since I did the short video for CD, I wanted to do more videos. Well, I can only hope for the future now.
Many people ask me what the hell am I doing in Tourism course. The truth is I don't really know. All I know that tourism is an industry that will rise in the future, and my future should be secure. Damn, looks like I succumbed to the rat race of Singapore too. Maybe I can fulfill my ambitions as a side hobby.
***footnote***
It all seems so hopeless.
***Thursday quote***
The only thing sure in life is death.
It's 1150pm now. So i have only 9 minutes to post this to reach my quota of one post a day. Today went past quite fast. Maybe it's because I found something to fill my time with.
I have quite a few absurd ambitions. I want to be a writer and a director. Ever since I did the short video for CD, I wanted to do more videos. Well, I can only hope for the future now.
Many people ask me what the hell am I doing in Tourism course. The truth is I don't really know. All I know that tourism is an industry that will rise in the future, and my future should be secure. Damn, looks like I succumbed to the rat race of Singapore too. Maybe I can fulfill my ambitions as a side hobby.
***footnote***
It all seems so hopeless.
***Thursday quote***
The only thing sure in life is death.
Wednesday, September 24, 2008
Dreams
A dream is a wish your heart makes.
What are dreams actually? Are they memories we revisit? Are they signs from the future? Or are they just wishes?
The thing about dreams is when everything turns out bad, we can just wake up. And it will be all gone. Press the reset button. If only life have this reset button, wouldn't things be much easier? With just a press of this button, we can choose differently, walk another path. How many of us out there hopes for this button to be true? The sad thing is, it isn't.
Life is about the choices we make. I don't believe in fate. Life isn't pre-determined, it's determined by the steps we take. Everyday we make decisions. We might regret them later on but we still have to live with them. No reset button. No second try.
***footnote***
Wishful thinking on my part?
What are dreams actually? Are they memories we revisit? Are they signs from the future? Or are they just wishes?
The thing about dreams is when everything turns out bad, we can just wake up. And it will be all gone. Press the reset button. If only life have this reset button, wouldn't things be much easier? With just a press of this button, we can choose differently, walk another path. How many of us out there hopes for this button to be true? The sad thing is, it isn't.
Life is about the choices we make. I don't believe in fate. Life isn't pre-determined, it's determined by the steps we take. Everyday we make decisions. We might regret them later on but we still have to live with them. No reset button. No second try.
***footnote***
Wishful thinking on my part?
Stranger Chapter 1.
Story time people.
Every Wednesday I shall post a chapter of the story I'm currently working on. Right now, I'm working on a story called Stranger.
It's about online chatrooms and how people are able to share private information to perfect strangers. Hope you like it.
***footnote***
With everything going on inside of me, I wanted to write a love story instead.
***story***
I realised bloggers format made my story too confusing so I posted it in a story telling website. Strangers Chapter 1. Enjoy.
http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2575907/1/Stranger
Every Wednesday I shall post a chapter of the story I'm currently working on. Right now, I'm working on a story called Stranger.
It's about online chatrooms and how people are able to share private information to perfect strangers. Hope you like it.
***footnote***
With everything going on inside of me, I wanted to write a love story instead.
***story***
I realised bloggers format made my story too confusing so I posted it in a story telling website. Strangers Chapter 1. Enjoy.
http://www.fictionpress.com/s/2575907/1/Stranger
why do you do this to me?
You make it hard to smile because.
Right now, I feel like I'm torn in two. The same old problem, do I listen to the heart or my mind. Do I be impulsive or rational?
The last time round, I chose to listen to my heart. The outcome wasn't pretty. Do I wish to make the same mistake again? Suffer the same routine once more?
WAKE UP JP! PULL AWAY BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. please?
***footnote***
The heart wants but can't get.
Right now, I feel like I'm torn in two. The same old problem, do I listen to the heart or my mind. Do I be impulsive or rational?
The last time round, I chose to listen to my heart. The outcome wasn't pretty. Do I wish to make the same mistake again? Suffer the same routine once more?
WAKE UP JP! PULL AWAY BEFORE IT'S TOO LATE. please?
***footnote***
The heart wants but can't get.
Tuesday, September 23, 2008
Should I or Shouldn't I
Shh.
In my bid to be a hard working blogger, I'm running out of things to say. Everyday of my life is currently spent at home, staring at my laptop. Sort of a no life right now.
When I woke up today, I was at a loss on what I'm want to do. So I sat on my mattress and starting thinking. I pondered on my life goals, thought of what I'm doing in my life, and how much of an impact I'm making on this sphere we call earth. I came to a conclusion that I'm doing nothing useful. I have no life goals.
Do we have it all set for us here? It's like our life will be study followed by work. Like a template we have to follow. I look ahead into the future and I shudder at the thought. The thought of holding a mundane 9-6 job, following a routine day in and day out. To me it seems like we have played our fill and the rest of our lives seems to be about work and stress. Nothing to look forward to.
I'm lying. I do have something to look forward to. I have a goal, a dream, a wish. But right now, it all seem so far away. It's as if I can't achieve it.My built in character doesn't allow me to fret over my problem. I'm still as laid back as ever.
Living life one step at a time.
***footnote***
This question is haunting me. Should I or shouldn't I?
***Question***
I'm trying to allocate an item to everyday of the week. So every Tuesday I will post a question for you guys to rack your brains. Have fun!
In my bid to be a hard working blogger, I'm running out of things to say. Everyday of my life is currently spent at home, staring at my laptop. Sort of a no life right now.
When I woke up today, I was at a loss on what I'm want to do. So I sat on my mattress and starting thinking. I pondered on my life goals, thought of what I'm doing in my life, and how much of an impact I'm making on this sphere we call earth. I came to a conclusion that I'm doing nothing useful. I have no life goals.
Do we have it all set for us here? It's like our life will be study followed by work. Like a template we have to follow. I look ahead into the future and I shudder at the thought. The thought of holding a mundane 9-6 job, following a routine day in and day out. To me it seems like we have played our fill and the rest of our lives seems to be about work and stress. Nothing to look forward to.
I'm lying. I do have something to look forward to. I have a goal, a dream, a wish. But right now, it all seem so far away. It's as if I can't achieve it.My built in character doesn't allow me to fret over my problem. I'm still as laid back as ever.
Living life one step at a time.
***footnote***
This question is haunting me. Should I or shouldn't I?
***Question***
I'm trying to allocate an item to everyday of the week. So every Tuesday I will post a question for you guys to rack your brains. Have fun!
Three men ate dinner at a restaurant. The bill came up to $30.
Each paid $10. After they left the restaurant, the manager realized there was a mistake in the bill.
The bill was merely $25. He sent a waiter with $5 to pay back the 3 guys, who had gone their separate ways.
As the waiter ran after the 3 guys, he realized they had split up, and he thought to himself, "How the heck am I supposed to pay each person 5/3 dollars? Heck, I'll just give each guy a dollar each, and keep $2 for myself as tips!".
So each guy paid $10 - $1 = $9. Three guys paid $9 x 3 = $27 in total. Plus the $2 the waiter kept, that's $27 + $2 = $29. What happened to the missing dollar?Monday, September 22, 2008
Uncomfortably slow.
Morning people.
It's 415 pm and I just woke up. So long since I slept till so late.
You might have noticed I added a song to my blog. It's Uncomfortably Slow by Newton Faulner. The song can really put through the emotion of being out of love. This will be the song of the week.
***footnote***
When I heard that you're sad, it made me sad too. Wish I can do something.
***Lyrics***
Travelling again
I know exactly how it's gonna end
The routine day dream starts as I get off
I'm holding up the queue
Because my ticket won't go through
I know it should be simple but it's not
So don't take my photograph
Cos I don't wanna know how it looks
To feel like this
As cars and people pass
It feels like standing still but I know
I'm just moving uncomfortably slow
Something's gotta change
I know i'm lucky in a lot of ways
So why do I want more
Than what I have?
Brace myself to hear the lies
I wonder if they know that I
Don't get the jokes but I just
Need to laugh
So don't take my photograph
Cos I don't wanna know how it looks
To feel like this
As cars and people pass
It feels like standing still but I know
I'm just moving uncomfortably slow
I'm just moving uncomfortably
Slow down
There's infinite detail
When you break it down
It all becomes simple how
It all becomes clearer now
So don't take my photograph
Cos I don't wanna know how it looks
To feel like this
As cars and people pass
It feels like standing still but I know
I'm just moving sub-consciously
One day I guess i'll be
The man that you think you see
I'm just moving uncomfortably
Slow.
It's 415 pm and I just woke up. So long since I slept till so late.
You might have noticed I added a song to my blog. It's Uncomfortably Slow by Newton Faulner. The song can really put through the emotion of being out of love. This will be the song of the week.
***footnote***
When I heard that you're sad, it made me sad too. Wish I can do something.
***Lyrics***
Travelling again
I know exactly how it's gonna end
The routine day dream starts as I get off
I'm holding up the queue
Because my ticket won't go through
I know it should be simple but it's not
So don't take my photograph
Cos I don't wanna know how it looks
To feel like this
As cars and people pass
It feels like standing still but I know
I'm just moving uncomfortably slow
Something's gotta change
I know i'm lucky in a lot of ways
So why do I want more
Than what I have?
Brace myself to hear the lies
I wonder if they know that I
Don't get the jokes but I just
Need to laugh
So don't take my photograph
Cos I don't wanna know how it looks
To feel like this
As cars and people pass
It feels like standing still but I know
I'm just moving uncomfortably slow
I'm just moving uncomfortably
Slow down
There's infinite detail
When you break it down
It all becomes simple how
It all becomes clearer now
So don't take my photograph
Cos I don't wanna know how it looks
To feel like this
As cars and people pass
It feels like standing still but I know
I'm just moving sub-consciously
One day I guess i'll be
The man that you think you see
I'm just moving uncomfortably
Slow.
Silence
When it's silent, i get to hear my thoughts.
Right now, I'm a mixture of feelings. Ranging from relief to anger to sadness to hopeful. Calm down.
I can hear nothing expect for the ticking of my clock and the sound of me typing. Oh ya, there's those tiny voices in my head too.
Shh.
***footnote***
I'm still sitting on the fence.
Right now, I'm a mixture of feelings. Ranging from relief to anger to sadness to hopeful. Calm down.
I can hear nothing expect for the ticking of my clock and the sound of me typing. Oh ya, there's those tiny voices in my head too.
Shh.
***footnote***
I'm still sitting on the fence.
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Malaysia
Hello people.
Yesterday I spent the whole day at JB. Damn fun shopping and eating. It's amazing how cheap stuff in Malaysia can be.
I bought a hoodie and a pair of slippers. My fake pair of havanas finally broke down.
This is my hoodie and my slippers. Nice?
I want to go back again la. Still have alot places to walk.
***footnote***
Used to be I would buy a present for you when i was in Malaysia. Feels weird not to buy something for you yesterday.
***Sunday Joke***
As today is a Sunday, I think we should end the week smiling. So here's a joke!
"Stewardess"
"Yes, Sir?"
"I want to complain about this airline. Every time I fly, I get the same seat, I can't see the in-flight movie and there are no window blinds so I can't sleep."
"Captain, shut up and land the plane."
Yesterday I spent the whole day at JB. Damn fun shopping and eating. It's amazing how cheap stuff in Malaysia can be.
I bought a hoodie and a pair of slippers. My fake pair of havanas finally broke down.
This is my hoodie and my slippers. Nice?
I want to go back again la. Still have alot places to walk.
***footnote***
Used to be I would buy a present for you when i was in Malaysia. Feels weird not to buy something for you yesterday.
***Sunday Joke***
As today is a Sunday, I think we should end the week smiling. So here's a joke!
"Stewardess"
"Yes, Sir?"
"I want to complain about this airline. Every time I fly, I get the same seat, I can't see the in-flight movie and there are no window blinds so I can't sleep."
"Captain, shut up and land the plane."
xin jing zi ran liang
The heart has to be calm.
Right now, it's in a mess. Because of her? Please Jonathan. Don't be stupid twice in your life.
***footnote and daily quote***
You're still stuck in my mind.
Absence makes the heart grows fonder.
Right now, it's in a mess. Because of her? Please Jonathan. Don't be stupid twice in your life.
***footnote and daily quote***
You're still stuck in my mind.
Absence makes the heart grows fonder.
Friday, September 19, 2008
GET OUT OF MY HEAD
When does a crush get serious?
I know it's just a crush i having. But it feels so real yet so fake. Making the same stupid mistake again.
It's after the chalet. And you are stuck in my head. No reason for me to be like this. And yet i am. I wish my brain could just be numb. And i can't feel anything. Blissful peace.
Meditation calms me down.
***footnote & daily quote***
My results came back good. Not quite what i'm expecting but I'm contented with it.
To be insane might just be the best thing to happen to you.
I know it's just a crush i having. But it feels so real yet so fake. Making the same stupid mistake again.
It's after the chalet. And you are stuck in my head. No reason for me to be like this. And yet i am. I wish my brain could just be numb. And i can't feel anything. Blissful peace.
Meditation calms me down.
***footnote & daily quote***
My results came back good. Not quite what i'm expecting but I'm contented with it.
To be insane might just be the best thing to happen to you.
Tuesday, September 16, 2008
Fears
Everyone has fears. Not to the extent of being phobias but just fears. Like fear of the dark, or fear of clowns.
For me, i tell people i'm afraid of dolls. Not those fuzzy stuffed animals dolls but those lifelike dolls with those eyes. They are really creepy. Nightmares of them waking and walking around.
But what i'm really afraid of is becoming an irritant to the people around me. I wan be friendly, but i fear to be over-friendly to the extent that people find me a nuisance. Then i will find people starting to avoid me. Not fun.
***Footnote & daily Quote***
Hello to the only known reader reading this! And WOOHOO liverpool 2-1 MANU.
Silence can be real deafening at times.
For me, i tell people i'm afraid of dolls. Not those fuzzy stuffed animals dolls but those lifelike dolls with those eyes. They are really creepy. Nightmares of them waking and walking around.
But what i'm really afraid of is becoming an irritant to the people around me. I wan be friendly, but i fear to be over-friendly to the extent that people find me a nuisance. Then i will find people starting to avoid me. Not fun.
***Footnote & daily Quote***
Hello to the only known reader reading this! And WOOHOO liverpool 2-1 MANU.
Silence can be real deafening at times.
Friday, September 12, 2008
Soulmate.
Today's topic..soulmates.
Do any of you believe in soulmates? Do you believe that there is the perfect person for you out there? The one person who completes you.
Well, for me i believe in soulmates. Everyone can find that special someone, and when they do, the feeling is indescribable. That person will make them feel whole again.
I once read this in a book, there's this belief that humans are made as pairs, one male and one female joined together. Then humans got separated. So we spend our lives seraching for our other half, our soulmate.
***footnote & daily quote***
Been feeling sad these few days. Feeling damn seul. Thats french for alone.
Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you and trusting them not to use it.
Smile.
Do any of you believe in soulmates? Do you believe that there is the perfect person for you out there? The one person who completes you.
Well, for me i believe in soulmates. Everyone can find that special someone, and when they do, the feeling is indescribable. That person will make them feel whole again.
I once read this in a book, there's this belief that humans are made as pairs, one male and one female joined together. Then humans got separated. So we spend our lives seraching for our other half, our soulmate.
***footnote & daily quote***
Been feeling sad these few days. Feeling damn seul. Thats french for alone.
Love is giving someone the ability to hurt you and trusting them not to use it.
Smile.
Tuesday, September 2, 2008
hey you
hey you. those of you that actually reads this blog. i have a feeling that is a total of zero people. wont that make me talking to myself? or it is make i?
since i'm talking to myself, hi me! how was ur monday?
uh. its the 1st day of the holidays. so i'm dreading the prospect of super boring days yet to come. i should have went to look for a job la.
Aw. is it really that bad?
haha. that was fun talking to myself. now back to narration. lets see..what was i up too recently.
1stly - Exams are over. wee. lol. think i shld do quite ok.
2ndly - watched 4bia. had planned to supper after that. and we went. HEY WAIT! none of ur plans work wad. okok you caught me. that day was really quite depressing for me. but it's nth. i hope.
3rdly - what else is there. happy bday to all those born in august. oh ya! my student gave my a teachers day present. you think its no big deal to teachers but it is actually. quite a good feeling.
sidenote - having some teeth aches now. i think is the coke i drank. freaking pain now.
i wan a large cup of espresso frapp double shot. pls? haha
since i'm talking to myself, hi me! how was ur monday?
uh. its the 1st day of the holidays. so i'm dreading the prospect of super boring days yet to come. i should have went to look for a job la.
Aw. is it really that bad?
haha. that was fun talking to myself. now back to narration. lets see..what was i up too recently.
1stly - Exams are over. wee. lol. think i shld do quite ok.
2ndly - watched 4bia. had planned to supper after that. and we went. HEY WAIT! none of ur plans work wad. okok you caught me. that day was really quite depressing for me. but it's nth. i hope.
3rdly - what else is there. happy bday to all those born in august. oh ya! my student gave my a teachers day present. you think its no big deal to teachers but it is actually. quite a good feeling.
sidenote - having some teeth aches now. i think is the coke i drank. freaking pain now.
i wan a large cup of espresso frapp double shot. pls? haha
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