Done deal.

Emo rant coming up.

I'm going to write all the stuff down here cause I tend to be more expressive through my blog. Well, these past days, past weeks of see-sawing back and forth finally came to an end. Finally fell of the see-saw. Can't say I'm surprised. I sort of already sensed it from you and was hoping to make the choice much much later compared to now.

How this reminds me of the scene two years ago, it's freaky. Then I made the decision to follow my heart. Now I listen to reason.

There's no way it would have worked out. It's just to messy for both of us. Mainly you though. I'm just angry and mad this hasn't happened a year ago. Bad timing huh? Truth is, you wouldn't be happy with me anyway. I'm too protective, too obsessive and think too much. I mean I could even get angry at the thought that the sony guy asked you out really spoke to me. I'm definitely not ready to be in a relationship.

Well they say you can't lose what you never had. I didn't place any bets, take any risks so I shouldn't feel the pain right? Hope thats true.

Nice guy

A post before I shut my eyes on this world.

The nice guy in me doesn't allow me to walk away. Whenever I see you sad, I will have the tendency to do things that make you happy. But I grow tired everyday. I tell myself. Walk away. Treat it as if you will treat everyone but I can't. No idea why.

Goodnight world. And what happens if he ask you to get back together? What happens to me then?

Okay

And so you want to know what's on my mind?

I'm always ok.

Dang ni gu dan ni hui xiang qi shui?

Peom

Can someone advise me please
Things people do with ease
Why is mine so difficult
Everything's complicated

Sometimes I wonder why
Why do I even try
To make things go my way
To hear the things you say

To see the emotions you go through
To see you feeling so blue
It hurts me deep inside
So I try to be by your side

What can I really do
when I'm not the one for you
I can try to help you through
But I will always be number two

And number two I hate to be
Probably even number three
It's always the same for me
Maybe it's destiny

At times I really don't know why I'm always stuck with this job. This tedious job of being the 'rebound' guy. Tired out from all the emotional crap. So mentally worn out. What should I do?

Picture and apple trees

Take a picture of me today, before the smile goes away.
Take a picture of me again, before it starts to rain.
Take a picture of me once more, what are you waiting for?
Take a picture of me right now, before I start feeling down.

Take a video of me today, record the things I say.
Take a video of me again, while I'm still sane.
Take a video of me once more, what are you waiting for?
Take a video of me right now, while I'm still around.

Did I do the right thing? Made the right move? Played the right cards? Now I'm feeling struck out and down on my luck. Feeling all messed up and confused.

The old man found the apple tree he was. The problem is it has no more apples. What shall he do? Do he wait for the apples to grow or continue his search for his apple tree?

Lary had a mittle lamb.

Hello kind world.

Well I've been neglecting my blog. So now I'm back to write about my life. I went on a 3 week hiatus away from my laptop and that time was surprisingly relaxing. But now my laptop is repaired, I'm back to facing this soul sucking machine once again.

Going to get my hair cut tomorrow. Just cant stand my hair anymore. Too damn thick. And also, thurs - sun I'll be working PCshow 2009. So pop down and look for me.

Who wants to play a game of 'simon says' with me?
Too messy? Once again, I'm faced with this choice. Do I do the right thing, or the thing I want to do? Will I just end up hurting everyone again?